obsessions

Most of you reading can relate to being obsessed with running. You think about your race, your goal time, your workouts, what you wear, what you eat, what pace you are running, how your body feels. These are all common things that we runners like to think about, talk about, and obsess over (some of us more than others). We obsess over our times and force ourselves to run without a watch. We obsess over distance and force ourselves to just run for a certain amount of time. We've all been there.

Some of us obsess about food. We think about how much or little we're eating. We think about if we're eating healthy or junk food. We count calories. We eat with reckless abandon, not worrying about the calories. We seek out restaurants that fit our own particular 'foodie' needs.

I'm obsessed. I'm starting to 'nest'. This whole nesting thing they pin on pregnant women has little to do with actually preparing the physical part of the baby's living space. No, nesting is rather an obsession of the pregnant mind. Ask me what I think about when I'm not consciously trying to focus on work - and believe me when I tell you that work focus takes lots of effort these days. What am I thinking about? Pretty much everything baby-related.

Being pregnant in general - how big I am, what I'm feeling in my belly, is my belly bigger than last week, is this position that I'm sitting in or standing in good for the baby, what am I going to eat next that is good for the baby, when am I going to fit in my exercise today, do these clothes still fit, do I need more maternity clothes, did I take my vitamin, did I do my birthing class homework....
Preparing for baby's arrival - do we have our lists/registries ready, what are we going to have to buy for ourselves, what do we really need, what do we really want, do I know what insurance will cover, we really need to order our glider if we're going to get one, diapering, baby care stuff, breastfeeding stuff, reading books, thinking about our classes, the actual labor and delivery...wow, we're really going to have a baby.
Preparing the house - we need to get rid of stuff, we need to re-do the closet, why is it so darn cold in here, wow we have so much stuff yet to bring in the house, we really need to get rid of stuff...

The thoughts go on and on. The oddest thought that I had recently (don't judge, just laugh) - "We're going to have a baby. It is going to come out of my body and be there and we can't put it back. You can't 'undo' a baby."

I'm obsessed. 95% of what I think about is baby related. It is also completely uncontrollable. My mind just goes there, and from what I'm told is completely normal. It is nesting.

For those of you who talk to me sometime in the next many months - I really will try to think of something other than the baby to talk about with you. I love hearing about what everyone else is doing. If you want to talk to me about something other than baby-related things, I'm all ears and will eagerly break out of my nesting mind-set to try to be a 'normal' person to talk to.